Saturday, June 28th, 2008
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1:23 am - back to g'ville.
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Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
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9:27 pm
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it sucks when all your best friends come into town and you have a bunch of projects due and a conference to present at on the weekend IN FRONT OF FIFTY PEOPLE.
I hate that i get such bad anxiety from public speaking. it's really the most irrational fear in the entire world. it makes me feel stupid that i fall for it.
i can't wait until 1 PM on Saturday. it means I'm 98% done with grad school.
can't.
fucking.
wait.
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Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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9:34 am
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just when I thought it was all winding down...
I wish professors would include EVERYTHING they plan to assign on the syllabus.. it's really fucking lame when they don't. especially when they assign a huge ass project. egh.
I'm so ready.
I'm trying to get a lot done this morning. The next two weeks are going to be be filled with love and visits and fun...I can't afford to be a slave to the Norman Hall library.
Plus, Tom and I are going to a wedding this weekend. I'm picking him up tomorrow in Orlando.
It's the first wedding I've been to since I was eight. It'll be fun to wine and dine on the beach.
Ben gets here Wednesday, beth and Jay on Thursday, Jones and Eric soon after, and Brette + Cassie on Friday.
love
love
love
my heart will burst a million times.
the bursting begins in exactly 35 hours.
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Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
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8:04 pm - i'm glad i can be an optimist about 99% of the time.
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i started a journal where all i write about is what i'm grateful for. you'd think it'd get boring, but i can find different things to put in it every day. it all depends on who i interact with and what i accomplished with each page.you should try it. it made me feel better this week when i otherwise would have been a fucking mess.
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i also love my best friend an incredible amount. i want her to be happy and fulfilled because she deserves it more than anything else.
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Sunday, March 30th, 2008
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11:07 am
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I didn't do any work yesterday, and it was absolutely lovely.
instead I went to the festival at Kanapaha Gardens. i bought plants and almond soap.
then I stayed by the poolside all afternoon. then i listened to music that makes me happy. then i drew a picture of a fish.
today I'm going to do everything I put off but not be in a bad mood because of it.
school is almost overrrr. i can't wait to go on my trip. i think it'll change the way I am.
<3
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Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
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10:38 am
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I spilled coffee on my favorite pair of jeans. since I didn't want to start an entire load of laundry for one pair of pants, I handwashed them with soap and then laid them out in the sun to dry. Now that I'm wearing them, I can't stop putting my knee to my nose because the smell reminds me of Argentina. Whenever I'm there we line dry our clothes and all your clothes smell the same, with a hint of soap and sun.
it makes me feel like crying... i really miss my family.
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Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
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12:32 pm
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Each week a kid is picked to receive a Blue Ribbon Award for good behavior/grades. Today was the first time Kyle got it. The blue ribbon student needs to bring in pictures to put on a bulletin board in the room and a special item to share with the class.
He brought a coffee grinder. and hazel nut coffee. Then he used the grinder in front of the class and passed around the grounds for everyone to smell.
I. love. him.
I am more stressed out than I've ever been in my life.The amount of work I have to do is so overwhelming it's ridiculous. I haven't stopped working since Monday and I'll probably be a sleep deprived zombie for the next three weeks.
I was in the worst mood ever this morning and now I'm ok. I'll be ok.
thank you kyle.
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Saturday, March 8th, 2008
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12:52 am
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So tomorrow Luc, Funk, Denise and I embark on a new adventure.
i also might have a damaged foot. I think one of the tiny baby bones may be fractured. I tried to get it looked at today but had no luck. It could very well be just a nasty bruise, I can walk on the foot just fine. It's only very sore (and bluish) at the top. I wish I knew if that was serious or not.
but I'm alive! My chin is severely gross looking, but I have all my teeth. Spokey didn't completely fail me. I plan on riding it again one day soon.
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We'll be in Tallahassee tomorrow. Then Atlanta.Then Indianapolis. Then Chicago. Then St. Louis. Then somewhere in Alabama. Then a treehouse.
It's going to be so much fun. and with people I love immensely.
and Tom is going to see us in Chicago. He has two days off from the paper. I didn't think I'd get to see him again this soon.
I needed this like whoa. whoa.
<3
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Tuesday, February 26th, 2008
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10:13 am
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I've never experienced procrastination like this before. it's pretty bad. I think I need to graduate already.
I have a million things to do and study for and I keep finding ways to avoid them.
Last night I got ice cream and watched Pop-Up Video on VH1 Classics for about an hour (??!) until the Fashion Police came on. Then I decided I'm so much better than Fashion Police so I went back to Pop Up Video.
There were some pretty sweet ones though: Michael J, Paula Abdul, Madonna. I like the random trivia they provide. I was enjoying myself. And then it became too much trouble to try and write this paper so I went to bed at midnight and slept through my alarm for 8 this morning.
I have three hours to whip out 12 pages of writing. wish me luck.
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Friday, February 22nd, 2008
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11:02 am
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one of my favorite things in the world is finding out a friend says a particular word wrong, and has been doing it their entire lives without getting corrected.
Yesterday Funk said he was going to CVS to get "toilet treats" before his trip.
"Toilet Treats"
I want to call them that from now on. It's awesome that he thought that for his whole lifeeeee!.. I don't want him to change it.
i'm so glad this week is done. It's hard to do work when you're too excited about roadtrips and dance parties in the future.
i have to make a promise to myself that Sunday I'll sit down and get the MASSIVE amount of work I've let accumulate slowly, done. Ay dios. grad school is a lot of work. still, i'd rather be here than anywhere else.
i love Gainesville. I want my parents to move here and live in this house so I can come here all the time after I graduate. I hope they do.
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Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
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3:15 pm
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The more I learn about the Montessori method, the more I want to get certified.. Still, I feel like it's pretty expensive and I don't know if another couple years of school is what I want right now. I could just try out the public school system and see how that goes. I just know that I'll feel more comfortable teaching in an environment that doesn't glorify standardized testing and competition as much as our current system does.
I'm missing the people up north a tremendous amount. I want to visit again soon.. I would go during Spring Break but it's cold... and Funk, Luc, and I are planning a roadtrip during that time. it should be pretty exciting:) As of right now, I've scheduled a visit to NY during June after my trip to the Phillipines/Vietnam/Cambodia.
I WAY excited for all of that. I can't wait till graduation. I'm going to be glowing for two whole months.
then I have to figure out this job market business. Tom and I are thinking Austin or Atlanta are the way to go. Not too far from Florida but far enough. I'm leaning more towards Austin. He is too. In the end it depends on where he and I get hired.
being an adult is so scary.
the end <3
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Sunday, February 17th, 2008
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8:56 pm - yowza!
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i went to dinner with funk, luc, john richter, and denise at the top. then guess who walks in????
Demitri Martin.
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so my heart starting exploding and i gathered up enough courage to go and talk to him.. it was pretty sweet, considering i've spent about 70% of my time in the car listening to his stand-up for the last 2 months. it's just so cool to meet someone you admire so much. and think is super dreamy.
the funny part is that his picture was on my myspace page for about a year, under the "I'd like to Meet:" section. guess i can cross it off my list. haha
it was splendid.
<3
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Friday, February 15th, 2008
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1:46 pm
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I got this valentine from one of the kids in my class:
Dear Ms.Mattison,
I wanted to get you a real flower, but I hope that you will always remember this one that I drew for you instead.
senseriously,
Robert
I want to sign every letter with "senseriously" from now on.
Ps- if you want to be a teacher, you should substitute a class of unmedicated ADHD kids on Valentine's Day and see if you have enough patience to not shoot yourself in the face.
I did it! I'm ready for the workforce.. haha
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Thursday, January 31st, 2008
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2:11 am - superman that ho
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I just got back from GirlTalk.
super fun.(!)
I was dancing right next to him the whole show. I gave him a kiss on the cheek.
<3 i wish you could have been there, everyone should experience it at least once.
the end.
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Friday, December 28th, 2007
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11:42 am
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Although I miss Argentina more than you can imagine, Christmas at home went pretty well. We spent it at the beach, drinking a bunch of good wine my dad had collected over the past year and playing Scrabble in teams. It made me want to play more frequently and get way better. I really really enjoy it.
My parents leave for Buenos Aires on the 31st.. I'm still trying to figure out what I'll be doing that night. It's the first New Years I've ever spent with friends. For some reason, New Years has always been a "family thing" for us.. which is never fun unless we're with our cousins in Argentina.
But this one will be sweet for several reasons:
a) Tom is here and it hasn't even been 24 hours yet and it's already awesome.
b)I'll get my first New Years kiss ever. (this is lame I know... but I'm a girl and these kinds of things are important to me)
c)The New Year will be way less stressful/busy for me and I'll have more time to have a social life.
d)I'll actually make money this semester from tutoring and substituting instead of working 40 hours a week FOR FREE.
don't get me wrong, I loved my internship but it made me angry to put so much work into something and not get paid for it....and rack up a sick amount of credit card debt in the process.
I'll pay it back soon though.. and then I'm saving money for summer travels and maybe a new laptop.
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Thursday, November 1st, 2007
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12:58 pm - heart explosion!
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I needed last weekend like whoa. It was everything I expected it to be. We didn't even do anything too special or visit any phenomenal parties. The company was all I needed. I haven't laughed that hard in months. It's too bad I love my friends that have left way too much for me to want to make many new ones.. I just feel like no one could ever top them. I know I'll be seeing them throughout the rest of my life.
I put up pictures of this weekend on Facebook, so go look!
Halloween in 4th grade is awesome. I wore the care bear costume but left out the tights.. I wore long pants instead. I figured that'd be more appropriate. I took pictures but didn't want to post them online because it's illegal to put my students pictures online without permission. So I'll just show them to you when I see you, whoever you are.
I'll be in St.Louis in eight hours. Tom got Friday, Sat, and Sunday off.
I can't. fucking. wait.
<3!
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Wednesday, September 19th, 2007
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4:38 pm - Today was superawesomelikewhoa
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List 10 things that bring you a moment of joy (in no specific order):
Tag six friends to do the same.
1. Brunches at my house.
2. Long talks with Maya and Funk.
3. Thinking about the Donna Summer/keyboard dance parties with the Taurus Trio this summer.
4. Being in love.and spooning.
5. Seeing my parents after they've been away for a while.
6. Getting little gifts and drawings from students.
7. Glancing at the itinerary for my NYC trip.
8. Glancing at the itninerary for my St.Louis trip.
9. making a cool collage
10.Getting a massage
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Monday, September 10th, 2007
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4:37 pm - jumbotron
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they hired a new fourth grade teacher today. There are six kids leaving my homeroom to be in hers. My two other classes will also change, with ten kids leaving each one and 5 new kids coming in.
it's so lame that it's happening now, the fourth week of school. I feel bad for all the kids who have to get used to a brand new schedule.. it was already hard enough for them to adjust to this one.. they JUST got it down pat.. after three weeks. ay dios.
I'll also have to learn new names, make new name tags, new folders, explain our class system, arrange their curriculum folders, and set up special IEP's for any that need them.
lame.
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I'm losing some of my favorite students. like the one that taught me the Souljah boy dance. And several of the kids who get excited to sit with me at lunch and make me feel like a celebrity.. haha
the worst part is that we start on Thursday. it's so soon! I'll also probably have to call the parents of those that are leaving and tell them that their kid is moving classrooms. I know that won't be breezy.
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On a more positive note, I started being good to my body again. I went to the gym the other day and I plan on trying to go at least three times a week. I want to have some muscles. I used to feel pretty buff after consistently going to yoga and pilates classes for 4 months. I want to get back to that. I hadn't been to the gym in 2 months before Saturday. totally uncool, yo.
I also made delicious baked goods yesterday. i want to give some to funk and healey but I don't know if I'll have time to do that today.
Then I had a good conversation with my mom after I got out of school.
i'm in a pretty good mood. i wish my blockbuster DVD's came in today. I want to finish up this tv series i got into.
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Wednesday, September 5th, 2007
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7:30 pm
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it sucked to come home after doing so much today and not have Tom here to hug and make dinner with.
it also sucks to be a little bit sick.
i hope i learn how to deal with this in a better way than moping and watching bad tv..
i think i'll start doing art projects.
starting with making some sweet clothing out of the book Jfunk gave me.
then maybe some jewelry
then some collaging
and maybe i'll pick up journal writing again.
just for weeknights.. i'm not planning on becoming a complete hermit.
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Monday, August 27th, 2007
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2:37 pm
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I just got back from Clover. I was a little worried that maybe Tom didn't want to see so many of us after such an awful week. It was just the opposite though, and I'm really happy we could be there. I was so upset after talking to him on the phone and hearing him so torn up.. I just wanted to hug him. It made a big difference to be there in person.
I wish I could have met his dad.. He had a lot of friends and they all have a million funny stories to share about him. I really enjoyed being part of a wake.. I'd like it to be that way when I die.. just a bunch of friends coming together and having a good time and honoring your memory. It's a much better way to deal with a loss.
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Now we're back. I had jury duty this morning but I didn't have to serve.. They let me go after about two hours.. I was super happy about that. I really didn't want to miss out on the second week of school..I'm learning so much by being there.
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